Officially official

I bought my plane ticket to Utah yesterday.

*BIG GULP*

It definitely makes it feel a lot more real. Buying the ticket is like a fiscal confirmation that this is ACTUALLY happening. I am super, duper excited, but I think there is an even larger part of me that is terrified. I mean, I am "want to curl up in a ball in a secret, tiny dark place where no one can find me" scared. This is a big move for me. Sure, my parents moved to Texas while I still lived in Indiana, but I had my Oma and Opa there to house me when things got financially rough, plus a very expansive support system of friends. Utah is a very different story. I like to say I know plenty of people there, but not that many "close" friends. And finding an apartment when you can't really physically look at any is not exactly a settling thought. Plus, my parents will be even farther away, living in New Jersey or Connecticut.

Ok, so the list of negative things could go on for pretty much the rest of time. To calm myself down, I've been trying to bring the positive things to mind. Such as, I know I am doing what Heavenly Father wants me to do. BIG FREAKING POSITIVE right there! It does feel pretty good to know that. Fingers crossed it just doesn't change again.... I am already halfway to my savings goal. I'm blessed with a good job that can provide me with the funds I need. AND I do have a couple of families that could house me if the time comes and I don't have my own place. Chances are, I'll be able to find a job before I even move up there and it will be enough to pay the bills. And the last positive I can think of I guess would be the somewhat larger dating scene. Haha.

It really will be a great experience and I know that God will be there to watch me every step of the way. And it will probably be a little easier than what I am thinking, too. I just have to remember to always weigh the positive much more heavily than the negative.



Oh, and btw, I arrive in Utah on September 7th. X-D