Plans have changed since the last time I wrote on this. I am no longer attempting to au pair in Germany. This was not an easy decision to make as I pretty much had a guaranteed job in Munich *das sigh*. But, things work out according to Heavenly Father's plan, even if it's harder to complete the task he wants us to, and what He wants is for me to move to Utah in September (I am using Sept 7 as a somewhat tentative date).
How did my plans go from exotic, exciting Germany to moving to the LDS bubble that is Provo, Utah, you say? Well, HF has a sense of humor, I tell you what. I had made all my plans solid for Germany -- there was no way I wouldn't be able to go. And then I hear that little voice telling me I should make a back-up plan just in case anything were to go wrong. So, knowing I need to move out of my house, I begin brainstorming what kind of back-up plan would be good. Here is an example of my inner monologue at that time: "Lack of a vehicle means I should be near friends and in an area that has good public transportation. Also, I need a strong spiritual network to help keep me on the straight and narrow path. Plus, if I'm not going to Germany, I may as well start school as soon as I can afford it, and since my parents are moving from Texas, it would be cheaper for me to go to BYU. So, if I would go to school in Utah or Idaho anyways, it would make sense to be near there. Plus, everyone says the public transportation is awesome. And I don't know how much better of a church network I could find anywhere else. Huh...." I then proceeded to see if I could financially afford to live there and what I found out was that if I worked for the fall semester and then attended school in the winter semester, I could save up enough money at my current job to support me (while I worked as well). I then had friends saying they could find me a job, I saw rent was super cheap, and my back-up plan was born.
And then HF played a little trick on me. The more I planned my back-up plan, the more I felt like it was supposed to be my actual plan. The nagging feelings and little whispers were getting on my nerves -- I wanted to go to Germany! But after talking with President Lauritzen and a lot of praying, I resigned to His plan for me. I realized that Utah was never a back-up, but the actual plan. I still am not sure why he wants me there so soon, but I know it is for a good reason.
Also, Germany would have been WAY easier to do than this. I have to save almost 4X's as much money over the summer to be able to live and go to school in Utah than what I would have needed for Germany. And I would have come back with more money, too!
I think the final confirmation that Utah is my future was the fact that immediately after I made the steadfast decision to move there, EVERYTHING in my life got harder. It seemed like nothing was going right and stuff just kept trying to push me down and keep me from succeeding. After I realized the timing and why bad things kept happening, I knew the adversary was trying to prevent me from succeeding in my goal. That has only made me want to try even harder and put more faith in the Lord.
So after that ridiculously long explanation, I guess I will try and keep this updated on the progress of my move (if I'm not too busy).
Or I could just see you in Utah. :-)
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